Darling, you need to die happy.

Alone and Caring

I really don't care if I lose anyone I've cared about in this short space of time.
I don't care if any of you don't like me or hate me or love me dearly
I don't care about life or living
I don't care about being happy, sad, devastated, or annoyed
I don't care that I can't see the truth or witness something or lie everyday
I can't care anymore



But you all know that everything I said is the biggest lie a big liar like me ever said.
Now you want me to say what?

This, This Is Me After You

I don't mind the cold when I have a fire to warm me 

I don't mind the rain 'cause it makes the flowers grow 

I can take the bad times when you wrap your love around me 

I don't mind the thorns when you're the rose 

(Lee Greenwood - I Don't Mind The Thorns If You're The Rose)

Fake greetings, fake smile, fake love. The cold, dark sky of November fade as you turn your back to me. I expect everything to be pitch black, but no. I am stronger than I thought. I welcomed you with heavy smile while you gave me heavy tears on my polo shirt. And the cups of tea I made you is just another excuse to take care of you more than I should. I'm fooling myself saying that you know me, and you actually thinking of me. But I accept it, gladly. My heart bleed, literally, but I shook it off because I don't mind. 

I don't mind if you kill me slowly by breaking it, crushing it.

Cause in this whole wide world, you're my only rose with so many thorns

You're the only one, you know that?

Racing With Fragmented Moments

If I die tonight,

I'd go with no regrets,

If it's in your arms,

I know that I was blessed,

And if your eyes,

are the last thing that I see,

Then I know the beauty heaven holds for me

(Westlife - Moments)

No, I'm not okay. If you made me this scared - scared as hell, why would I lie that much of being okay? Strange how you made me feel peaceful and anxious at the same time, same amount. Peculiar. That's it. I'm done.

But you're not the problem. I am.